I'm really starting to suck at keeping up my blogger

Merry Christmas, Happy New Year, and yadda yadda. My last last blog was happy and all that jazz. Well, it's gone. I GAINED 10 goddamned pounds during the holiday season!!!! WTF?!?!?!?! I ate. Ate. Ate. Ate. Ate. I thought it was okay because, "I could always go to the gym and work it off". Yeah. Right. I can not tell a lie, I didn't go as much as I should have and only went on one jog. I feel like such a fat ass. A friend of mine told me that if I got up to 150 lbs they would let me know I was becoming fat. Yeah, it's a dick thing to say, but it keeps me from becoming a fat tub of lard (please no offense to those that are in that weight range, it's my disordered thinking and my self hatred that causes me to believe I would be fat and hideous if I weighed that much). So, last time I wrote I was 121, yeah, well, I fucked that up. 131. I hate myself. I got my tattoo as a reward for being on track and loosing weight. Fail. On a flip side, it's a new year and a new start, right? My resolution: Loose weight and keep it off (GW: 95 lbs. by December). Ace my classes and get into ASU in the fall.